It's been awhile...

It's March! I've always loved March and April. The weather gets so nice. I have a few updates since the last time I posted:

-New part in a new play. I'm Howard in Moon Over Buffalo. It's perhaps the funniest part I've ever played. I'm excited.

-OBSP Benefit Concert with Nick Saverine. He came from our town and ended up doing The Phantom of the Opera in Germany as the fucking Phantom. He was also in Tanz Der Vampire...which makes me unrealistically excited. I'm glad I'll get to be singing with him.

-The Music Man at school. I hate it. I really hate doing my High School's shows because I feel really out of place when I do things that would be expected of me in any higher level of theatre...like reacting to things.

- Tomorrow, I start Driver's Ed. It's the first step on the long road ahead of me that eventually allows me to drive myself around. The only problem is that we have the "bad" kids in our class and I'm kind of worried that they'll distract everyone.

- I love rediscovering music. It just makes me happy. I also like discovering music. That makes me happy too.

- It's that time of the year when all of my friend's school's are doing their musicals! So far I've seen my friends in Brigadoon (I really want to do that show now) and my friend as Ms. Hannagan in Annie! I love seeing other schools do shows. It really shows me how different directors can be.

- There's a small, small chance of it happening, but a relationship might be in my near future. Things with this one guy have been going great and we might be dating... : )

- As my last update, Facebook changed it's homepage again. I really don't like it. But, it's their site, I'm just using it.

I hope everyone (my one reader) is doing well!

Oh Dang...

So this weekend was absolutely amazing. Friday, I invited my friends Andrew and Jim to go to the movies on Saturday but Jim heard wrong and called me that night asking where we were meeting . We ended up seeing Coraline that night lol. It's a really trippy movie that I don't think is good for kids. I loved it though. After the movie, we went to Andrew's house and decided that we we're going to NYC the next morning. So the three of us slept over at his house and we woke up at 6:30 the next morning. We left from Jim's house at eight and got to the city at around 8 (It was a totally amazing car ride). We went to Starbucks and walked around for a bit before meeting with some friends at around 11 for lunch. We started to head back to NJ around 1 and got home in record time. We spent so time at Jim's house because we felt like hanging out.

What happened next was prehaps the stupidest thing I've ever done. Jim and Andrew were talking and, out of nowhere, I decided to call up this guy I've had a major crush on for the past two years and tell him how I felt. I really don't even know what happened, I just did it. If I can remember, the conversation went like something like this:

Me: Hey [guy I like], It's Zach.
(Jim and Andrew stop talking and look over)

Him: Umm...hey. What's up? Are you ok?

Me: Yes! I've had the most amazing 24 hours of my life. Things have happened and I think I just really need to tell you something.

Him: Ok...

Me: Well, you might think I'm high or drunk or something but I've liked you for a long long time. I think for as long as I've known you. I'm sorry if this is freaking you out. I hope I just didn't ruin our friendship.

Him: Uhh...it's ok.

Me: Damn, I sound crazy right now

Him: Uh...I think we need to talk about this later. I'll see you later. Bye.

The next thing I can remember is laying on the couch with Jim and Andrew near close to having a panic attack. I don't think I've ever done anything close to that in my entire life. It felt totally amazing.

It's been over 24 hours since then and no response. I really hope I didn't screw things up.

I haven't posted in a bit.

Actually, since opening night. Tomorrow is our last show and I have quite a few different emotions. First, I'm going to be sad to see a show as magical as this close. I don't think we've ever had a bad show. I'm so happy that my mom recorded tonight's show. I'm also kind of angry because I feel like I'm ignoring my best friends for something that I usually feel kind of left out of. I'm also terrified because I'm going to be away from alot of my friends from OBSP for a long, long time. I won't be in a show until next September and that scares me alot. But maybe I'll find a job and get some money so I can actually do things with my friends. And I'm kind of still totally head over heels for someone and I thought that since the show is almost over, I'd have given up now. Bah. This post is depressing me. I think I should just go to bed.

Opening Night...

...was AMAZING! We had the energy and probably the best audience ever. Some technical things went wrong but it was actually kinda funny. After the show was pretty awesome. We went to a local restaurant and partied it up a bit. I think I had the best table ever and right now I think I'm a bit drunk off of jello shots. I had three: blue raspberry, lime, and grape. They were pretty awesome. I think I should get some sleep.

Worst fucking rehearsal ever.

I'm done. I really think I've had all that I can take with this fucking show and I'm done.

I haven't posted in two days

Rehearsals have been going well. I've been doing this (almost daily) for a bit now lol. It just snowed and it's all pretty outside : )

Everybody in the whole cell block...

We're running act one tomorrow!!! We did a fuckton of set work today and worked on alot of stuff that needed polishing. Tomorrow I have my US History and Chem exams...not looking forward to them at all.

The ensemble can go...

Suck it. Seriously. Every time they sing something we haven't gone over in a few days, it sounds like they're singing it for the very first time. It's not even all of them! It's just a few people that bring everyone else down. It's really really sad.

But we're so close to finishing the show. We have like, one more song that doesn't require a full cast so it won't take three hours and a dance break!!!

So I'm done

I took my first and second block exams today. They were fun. We had two hours per exam (yeah one class room for two hours) and I got them both done with in the first hour. I can't believe the year is going by so fast.


I can't wait for All Shook Up shit to just be done with so we can finally have fun with the show.

I'm pissed

Yesterday, rehearsal was canceled because it snowed and the roads were icy. We all thought today's rehearsal was going to be extra busy because we only have a week left until opening night.

Rehearsal was an hour. We ran each dance twice and I was only in one of them anyway. I should have just not fucking gone and I'm really really pissed off right now. I just need a nice relaxing conversation.

...and I have exams tomorrow.

In the past two days...

There have been five fights at my school. Three of them were gang related.

Don't I feel safe?

Hi one person who's following me : )

Nerd in love.

That's pretty much the basis of what Dennis is. I need to expand on that and portray it so much better if I don't want to look stupid next to the amazing talent that surrounds me.

I have a love/hate relationship with character work

I hate...

-Lab Reports
-People who confuse me
-Choruses that don't know what they're doing when they're on stage
-Not having my lines memorized
-School
-Liking people whom I see often
-Loving someone I never see
-The general student population of CRHS
-The fact that the OBC of All Shook Up had the acting skills of a middle school drama club
-That my room is so messy
-That my voice isn't where I want it to be right now
-How some people still think Obama can loose his presidency by doing nothing
-How I've ignored my Animal Crossing town for a few weeks
-All kinds of fruity gum except 5's "Elixr"
-Having to pick out a new song for my Chorus final
-Myspace
-How bookstores are closing because people don't read anymore
-The state of the economy
-Not being taken seriously because I'm Fifteen
-How I started to hate All Shook Up
-Having someone who I can trust 100% but still don't tell everything to
-"Blue Suede Shoes"
-People who go from relationship to relationship while I'm sitting here
-Relationships in which people are obnoxious about their "love"
-Little children
-Awkward moments that I create without meaning to
-Yelling at people to get them to shut up
-Flirting
-Television
-Having the feeling that I'm ignoring my friends
-Being totally stressed
-Hearing people complain about how horrible their lives are when I didn't ask them
-Italian-Americans who are quite obnoxious about their heritage
-Not understanding Spanish
-When people go through my texts
-Hairspray
-People who can't appreciate things with deeper meanings
-How commercialized things are becoming
-Jealousy
-People who think Wicked is the only musical on Broadway
-Not being able to help someone who really needs my help
-Sleeping in school
-When people say "gay" instead of stupid
-People who think South Jersey is hell on earth
-Having crappy diction
-Bad grammar
-USING CAPITAL LETTERS FOR A WHOLE SENTENCE
-Chatspeak with the exceptions of lol, omg, and brb
-Braces
-Calling people
-Crying
-Thinking of things to put here
-Not getting harmonies
-Staying up all night
-Crappy American pop music
-When people ask stupid questions
-When people try to be funny often
-Having no idea about what I want out of life
-Being sick


Apparently, I love putting myself in a shitty mood.

Like a river flows...

We ran Act One today. I feel like the show is going to be amazing and that is that. I'm also excited because I ordered "Dude, You're A Fag: Masculinity and Homosexuality In High School" last night. My friend recommended it to me and I can't wait.

: )

Finally, a blog with something in it!

My highlight of today was seeing Urinetown at a local Regional Theatre Group. I was amazed at the talent and professionalism in such a small cast and theater. Even though OBSP gets about 30-40 people per a show, I don't think we could ever been that great. I'm excited for the Levoy because, with different theatre companies coming to the area, I might be able to be in a show like that.

My low point of the day was the most disappointing phone call of my life. Over an hour of prepping myself for what could have been one of the best moments of my life was ruined by my awkwardness and inability to speak on the phone.

Tomorrow is All Shook Up rehearsal...for once, I'm excited. We're blocking a song that I'm in for less than 30 seconds. I think I'll spend most of my time going over lines with Andrew.

Just one kiss can send us spinning.

I heard something in the hallway today that really made me think about life and I'm pretty sure I thunk some deep thoughts.

Too bad I forget what I heard.

The moral of this story is to never play "Are you nervous" with another gay man unless you really want his body.

Willkommen.

I love John Stamos. However, I do not like staying home from school to sleep because I stayed up all night coughing.

Oh well.